Do you know how it feels waking up still stuck?
In the same fucking well it’s hard to get up.
Feeling held down, by your worlds frown,
no Lassie around to ever pull you up.
I’ve been here, for an eternity, dying internally hide it all externally.
Was it a fall or choice i made?
a self made prison cause I been too afraid,
of being brave favoured by misfortunate,
couldn’t face my life so I chose an abortion,
the unfortunate didn’t/of not realise earlier,
my dreams are dead and I’m the murderer.
Verse 2:
Everyday it looks like i pray,
love from no one but the ground telling me to stay,
I obey, delay my life, no one around get counsel from a mic,
no father with advice,
every lesson is a match I barely put up a fight,
feeling hopeless, surrounded by vultures,
in every reflection i feel them approaching,
feeding of me, keep me in this coffin,
my only guests are dreams who haunt me,
Taunt me, you made us into this,
into a fucking wish when we wanted to exist
Verse 3:
5 years, it’s been 5 years,
From the day I chose a way, where joy disappeared
It’s clear, I’m ruled by fear,
Verse 4:
Is it me? Do I want to be free,
did I create the ghosts that are haunting me,
what. is it? I let myself be imprisoned,
locked the doors made the floor my mistress,
I must’ve kissed it, too many times,
too see she came to be from the doubt in my mind,
now it’s time to divorce, she took more than half,
gave what i couldn’t stand to get something that last,
no don’t worries to calm my ear,
something more than a credit card score,
something so robust it’ll wipe the floor
of the tears, fears, jeers,
leave em in a state where they'll never get near